I am 67 years old and I've had major depressive bipolar disorder. I have in the beginning taking 21 pills a day until just recently found something that seems to work, however, in the last 2 years I have been isolating. Depression? I am not so sure. I don't go anywhere, do anything, don't go outside, have the tv on just for a little noise to help keep the bad thoughts putting myself down. But sometimes I feel absolutely nothing. It's hard to smile, get excited, even to make a few comments to husband, kids, grandkids. I sit in my recliner rolled up with my knees to my chest and just doing nothing but sometimes wonder if this is my life. I started at 30 years old. I've had multiple hospitalizations, a few that lasted a year at a time. It does get better at times,