T!

Ugh. I texted S today, because last night was weird in the feelings department with going to the meeting/scrimmage.

Anyway...I noticed that when I got all "deep" with my feelings, she'd basically ignore it...so I asked her point blank "am I annoying?"

Long story short, she can't handle my negativity--and that is the THING i fear most that people will find me toxic. It is true.

I wrote an email to her, but haven't sent, which in the morning I am sure I will be grateful for.

I hate myself, T.

How can you ever change that?