So... my appt yesterday... The doc, who usually checks in every couple weeks, pulled me into one of the small exam rooms.

He wanted to just chat about the SH, and be sure I had a pdoc and such... he had seen (or been told and then seen, cuz I had to get staples on the 28th, which was messing with the use of that arm) recent SH.

I'm beyond scared to go back.

He mentioned APS, and that he wouldn't want to call them without my okay, but he is ethically responsible to make sure I am okay.

Then, me being stupid, SHed again after the appt cuz I was freaking out. Superficial, but still very visible.

I really just want to (need?) SH more... I mean, there are already some there, what's a few more, so my brain says...

I don't know what would happen if I just cancelled Monday's appt...