Ok, so I got a little combo that seems to be doing what I frankly thought was impossible; not only feeling held within a reasonable range of mood, but no constant barrage of senseless things that MUST be believed regardless of what rational mind would suggest.

A year from now... how do I remind myself that this is only true because of those meds? That someone is spending $5,000+ a year or so on medication to keep me stable, and the only thing it'll appear to be doing is making my hands shake a bit more, skin burn in sun easier, etc. Just seems like such an impossible bar to jump over time.

I've got some journaling and some text imagery to go back and read, but that's about it.