t, i did not dream of you last night. instead, i dreamed of walking through a field and finding big giant lemons that had been cut in half and when I picked one up, it was so very fresh, and the lemon juice smelled sweet, and I could not understand why cut lemons were strewn about the field, nor could I understand how they could be so fresh laying there cut open.

Also, you know how the other evening you were talking about that stuff you don't do? Well mostly I am glad that you don't. But there's this niggling little part of me that I've discovered since that wonders what if you did - would I not be so attached to you right now? Might I even be done with therapy already and moving on with my life?!

I am not sure I want to know the answer to these questions.