You have it with you, it's deep inside your heart. I know how sometimes it seems unthinkable to imagine how you felt "before", but its not. Anything is possible if you put your mind into it.
Can you think of the things you use to enjoy? what made you happy? Who were the people that made you feel good about yourself? What were things you did just for you, instead of the things that you do for other people.
If you can answer some of these questions, it might help point you in the right direction. Nothing is ever truly lost ... especially when it comes from your heart.
Sometimes have to feel lost in order to be found.
xoxo