I haven't drank for entertainment in a long time. I have drank a couple times the past year but it's always just a part of my exit plan and not for enjoyment. Therefore I was already symptomatic prior to drinking and drinking just gave me courage to do what I know needed doing. In the past it's sent me sky high though and deepened preexsisting depression so while I'm sane, it's easy to avoid it all together. At this point I plan to not drink again ever so we shall see how that goes.