I've been dealing with dissociation...derealization..whatever you want to call it, for years. Usually I can distract myself out of it.

But sometimes it gets really really bad. Like I don't think anything around me is real and my head is spinning. I try EVERYTHING to get out of it. I was just taking a shower and this happened. I ended up digging my nails so far into my skin and scratched across my body to where it bled.

I know being alone makes it worse. That's why I hate nights and showers.

I've probably posted about this before, but nothing has helped.