Yes you sound paranoid and anxious. Are you taking an AP right now?? But I too get like this especially lately. I watched "Manchester by the sea" last night and cried about 3 times because it brought up past emotions. So yea ill be avoiding that movie. And certain songs that remind me of painful stuff will just make me cry and quiver like a scared animal. Are you sure it's your writing that's causing this or just a coincidence?? I hope you feel better