He always talks of how we'll spend time together when he's on leave, but it never happens. The most we ever do is a little TV time in silence. He'd rather hang out 24/7 with his bestie cousin who is more like a brother to him than I am a sister. I cut myself every time he comes home because I feel guilty that I'm a terrible sister if he never gets excited to see me or spend time with me. Now he has a girlfriend that's his new top priority and they are out fishing with his cousin. I feel so heartbroken.