For me, it started with how I began seeing her. The T I had prior was retiring. Current T is the office supervisor. Previous T called her in to see if they needed to call police (county sheriff deputies with special training for mental health) for my safety from myself. Current T said basically not enough to justify commitment so they didn't call. When previous T retired, I was moved to current T since we had already met, and I kind of already knew her.

Also, last session, had major panic/dissociation attack. She spend half an hour past my appt pulling me back in, slowly. Trying to find out what I was comfortable with and not being pushy or threatening police. When I back for the most part, she walked me downstairs so I could smoke a cigarette. Could have left from there, but need to reschedule coming week's appt cuz of conflict, so we both went back upstairs. I think the time she spent that say was kind of confirmation for me, that I can tell her anything, but I'm still scared to really open up. The whole "everyone who knows the real me leaves" thought process.