I don't know what to do anymore, my one and only dream can't come true because it doesn't exist I'm all alone with no one to talk to and I feel like putting an end to my life is the only way to make they pain stop the more I think about it the more it hurts. I'm 20 years old with no job my mom passed away last year and my dad is about ready to throw me out of the house because I'm not doing anything with my life because what I want can't be earned I'm just so lost