T,
I'm trying so hard to be strong. I want to see this transition through. But I don't know if I can. Life is getting too hard. I'm really struggling. I try my best everyday to distract myself, but then night comes around and everything hits me. I'm being triggered so much. I'm having memories of my mom neglecting me, being homeless, of lossing people from my childhood to cancer, etc. I'm feeling a lot of loss. I feel like a failure at life. I can't get pregnant, I'm not married, I didn't finish college, I don't have a job, I have no friends, and am just an overall failure! I need you so much right now. I don't want to ask for help. I want to be strong and make you proud of me. But I don't think I can do this anymore.