Im dissociating very bad, it's begining to interrupt my ability to communicate . I talk but dissociating and talking are difficult tasks. Talking about one subject is impossible, having friends impossible... This piece is not sustainable.. I fear ceasing of such processes are growing too near to relax.. things are not OK, falling apart.. appointment tomorrow I didn't know about it surprise! I must tell them without going to the hospital? Im not going to that dreadful place....