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Originally Posted by Shawn447
When I was going through elementary and middle school, I was bullied very badly. They hit me, they talked about me, and they degraded me. One of the worst things they did to me in my opinion was constantly call me ugly. They called me ugly almost daily and made fun of almost everything about me from my looks to my voice to my mannerisms. I'm still effected to this day by that. I always feel ugly and I have almost no self-confidence. I was assaulted as well on different occasions. The bullying changed me as a person. Before it started, I had a lot of friends in my classes and was talkative. However, the bullying DESTROYED me socially. Ever since then, I've never been the same. I was super quiet and had little to no friends throughout the rest of my school experience. All the things that the normal kids got to do like go to prom and have friends, I never did. Even today, almost 10 years later, I STILL feel the effects from it. I'm not comfortable around people that I don't know and my self-esteem is very low. I have pretty much no friends and most of my school memories are mostly negative. I didn't go to prom like most people did. I didn't have a group of friends like most people did. All I ever wanted was to feel normal but the bullies took that from me. I will NEVER get those years back. When I think about this, it makes me enraged. I hate the people that did this to me. I wish I could physically hurt them. I'm so angry about this. I know this post was long but I needed to vent 
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You are correct to feel cheated, because you were. At this point do you want to let those a-holes win by letting the situation absorb all of your energy? The only piece of advice that I can pass on to you is something that has helped me deal with stress. Choice. The sort of choice to choose to let water flow under the bridge, at this point things in the past can't be reconciled so in order to feel less emotional about the situation will help you feel better and thinking more straight. Now that you know you were wronged and that in all reality won't get revenge. Are you able to move forward? That's where your energy should be focused, on you not those door knobs that caused you so much pain.