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Old May 07, 2017, 11:08 PM
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Originally Posted by lolagrace View Post
My pdoc described my mixed states as an agitated depression. In a mixed state I'm at my most dangerous. I'm suicidal, and because I'm so agitated, I'm also very impulsive and have the energy to carry out plans.
My pdoc has used the same description for me. I've also heard 'excited depression'. My last mixed episode landed me in IP.
I'm agitated, I'm impulsive, I have energy, but I'm also suicidal and anxious. I have negative thoughts/ideas, but they come at me with this rush. Like racing thoughts that I can't stop, only they are everything depressive I could ever think. And I can't sleep because of them because it is so loud that I feel like I want to just cover my ears and scream. I often describe it as chaos in my head.
It's hell.
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