Damm you. Why. Why am I so attached to you that I can't go 5 days without wanting to hear from you, contact you. Maybe you should tell me that I can't email you any more, maybe that would be better. Then the rule would be there, clearly spoken, and I can be the good girl and follow the rules. No, no you say it is ok to email you. But at the same time I feel every time I do, I am just showing you how messed up of person I am.