She told me that she loved me but wasn't in love with me anymore. She told me that while I was gone, I pushed her to basically hang out with this guy. She said that I should have never deployed while things where the way they where. She said she doesn't talk to the other guy no more and when I asked why she didn't give me a reason as to why. I was curious as it seemed like she chose hanging out with this man over me..she said that she was depressed and needed time to love herself before she could love anyone again. She told me that she is not ready to move back in again. She also told me that she will have male friends and that I shouldn't be controlling about it if they are just friends. Towards the end of the night after we put the children to sleep, I mentioned if she wanted me to stay the night or not and she told me it probably wouldn't be best cause it would give the kids the wrong impression. She also told me last night she didn't like sex anymore and how she hates men in general...I just don't know what to think about everything. It was definitely a lot to take in and a lot of hurtful things and tears that where said and done. I'm still just as confused as I was before. She told me she didn't want to go back to what it was. She also mentioned numerous times that if I want to be with her I'm going to have to accept the way she is, as she said she is tired of being shitted on by everyone
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