Does it make you feel even a little better to know that I am almost 45 years old, and I haven't achieved nearly as much as you have? In my eyes, you are far more successful than I could ever be!
I don't have any college degrees, and I have a job that a monkey could do just as well.
When I was young, I felt like I would eventually "fall into" a profession, and that I had time to decide what I wanted to do. Then twenty years went by in the blink of an eye, and I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up!
You had the courage and determination that I never had. I admire you!