My heart just breaks for you. You are so young....you should be enjoying life instead of wrestling all this. It's not fair but with treatment, medications, a strong support system and some self compassion you will make it through this difficult time. I agree with the above poster about considering disability. Like they said, it doesn't have to be a permanent solution. I have to believe there is a way to gain more stability via treatment and the other things I mentioned. Please be kind to yourself young one. I know how dark it seems right now, how deep the hole is that you are in but there is hope. I wish I could hug you right now. Please take care.