I worked most of my life being (what I now accept) as pretty decently Ill. Now that I know how bad my illness is I feel it's a barrier to working again so I'm kinda glad I never recognized how bad it was when I was younger. I do believe I will work again and I think being in contact with mental health professionals is sooooo important for me, even if I'm not symptomatic. Taking my meds and giving myself structure with compassion. I kinda wish I could go back to not knowing how bad it was....even though that sucked really bad too. But I can't and neither can anyone else reading this most likely so we need to learn to work around or with our illness somehow. (((Hugs)))