I think I might be happier if I had purpose in life that I could make progress towards. Whenever I try to invent a purpose I go blank. I have no wife, children, or friends. I have an elderly mother who is a bit pushy about demanding that I spend time with her almost every day. I have a job in a family business that I don't like and consumes all my time and energy and gives me worries about financial problems, management problems, etc.

I do care about my cat and my mother. I want to outlive them. That's not much of a purpose in life. Sometimes I am consumed by anger for being trapped in this situation.