i feel for you. please try to hang on until you see your doc. i'm seeing mine tomorrow about worsening depression, i know it can be difficult, feel impossible to have hope, and mornings are always the worst. it may have something to do with peak levels of stress hormone early in the day. hugs.
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Originally Posted by seesaw
I don't know what to do anymore. My work environment triggers me the second I get here every day.
This morning I sat down at my desk and a wave of depression came over me and all of a sudden I'm feeling suicidal. I'm trying so hard to get along, be positive, follow the rules, follow the chain of command...I feel like I'm in a cage...I don't know what I'm allowed to do or not do anymore since I got this new supervisor. And then they make me feel stupid for outright asking.
The anxiety, agitation, paranoia, depression, anger...I can't handle these overwhelming emotions coming from nowhere anymore. I thought I had a good handle on things, but all through April, I just fell apart.
I see my pdoc on Wednesday, but I don't know if I'll still be around for that.
Seesaw
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