I rarely take anxiety meds myself and now they aren't prescribed to me so I won't be able to. I worry about taking anything that reduces my already reduced facilities also. I used to be rather intelligent and I think I still am in some ways but learning new information has been very challenging for me for many years now. Even things I really care about learning. Too much pot and beer perhaps. Too much psychosis damaging my brain maybe. I don't fully know. I'm so sorry you were taken advantage of at work .....after working overtime and everything! That is just sad and how very pitiful of them to do that to you. Do you feel rested after 6 hours or always feel in a tired daze? No, my delusions were rather specific about not harming myself this time. I'm safe in that regard but if I don't improve mentally I can't imagine going on so there is that to contend with. I need to learn strategies for dealing with this curse I think. I need to learn to trust enough to make some friends .....I'm not religious but feel church might be my only option to meet the kind of people I'm looking to meet. There is hope right now. My anxiety is a killer though.....it's keeping me running in place all the time. I used to smoke pot and it helped but now makes it worse so I'm kinda stuck on what to do. I expect much more from myself than I've been able to accomplish in a long, long time. Maybe church will help.....maybe it really will. I don't have to believe everything to get something out of it but I feel my going would be dishonest. Maybe I will just be open and explain my real reasons for going and someone will accept me (not take pity on me but really accept me). I don't know....I need to do something and doctors can only do so much.