Prayer helped me through an extremely rough night this year. It's like my belief is stronger when I am down and out. Lately, I pray that my faith will be strengthened. I have always struggled with doubts. It's like sometimes a person's love and sadness is as big as the universe so to feel so much there must be an infinite power/energy behind it all. Something greater than we are born and just return to dust. People who are sincere and without ego would be accepting of your honesty and desire to grow and find your way in this life. I think your current faith is a reasonable place to start--none of us have exactly the same view--I think you should give it a try....