Thank all of you. Honestly, I think this episode is the result OF a med change and will be in all of our best interest soon. I am seeing my pdoc weekly. I just hate what I put them through. I think madness is destructive at its worse but there is beauty in all of its destruction. Like an internal war...one that makes me the best me...a MUCH better me who exists in pure insanity. My sweet girl asked me "when is "dr who" going to fix your meds. I had no idea how perceptive she is and that she even knew my doctor's name. She loves me despite my insanity and our love is, despite its many, manly flaws, so much deeper than ordinary, I believe. Maybe that is just the passion in me speaking...but trust me, she EXERTS the same passion.