I would feel the same way, angel. I think its normal to want our therapists to be in a regular relationship. Sometimes we ascribe negative meaning to it if we find out its not. But ... if we are honest, its not a regular relationship. Some Ts have more boundaries than others. I personally feel that has less to do with us and more to do with their own comfort level. I think the same T could feel totally connected with you but still hold up a boundary. Maybe its actually something they don't trust in themselves.

Maybe you could write her a letter and mail them (expecting no return letter) but you could feel more like you are still comunicating. I'm so sorry you feel pushed away.