I'm meeting pdoc tomorrow and I don't want to tell him what's been going on. But I know I should.

Basically I've been hearing lots of voices in my head, and I think they're the voices of people hacking into my mind. I also feel like the hackers take over from time to time and write what they like. I feel very irritable and stressed because of this and I'm finding it hard to relax.

If I tell the truth, it'll probably mean more meds. I don't want more meds. I also need pdoc to sign a medical clearance for Egypt. I don't want him to think I'm unwell (even if I sort of am). But then again, what happens if I get sicker and then I can't hide it anymore and need hospital? That would be a disaster! What to do...