Here lately, I have been having an enhanced sex drive.

It all started after being turned down by a girl that I met on the bus last week after finally working up the courage to ask a female out on a date (something that I've always struggled with due to introversion and being socially awkward at times). She turned me down because she is a lesbian but said she would be my friend. Of course, the next day when I was going to meet up with her for coffee as a friend, she didn't make it and wouldn't answer my texts so I gave up on dealing with her.

Thing is, this female in particular, even when I was around her, I had a strong desire to want to have sex with her which is why I asked her out on a date in the first place considering that I'm nowhere near ready for a relationship. What made me feel this way about her was the fact that she also was wearing a short black dress and was lugging around a large backpack that had her laptop in it and the way the backpack was positioned hanging down off her shoulder made it to where when she walked, the backpack was pulling the back of her dress partially up, yet she seemed either too lost in her head to care or too oblivious to know what was going on.

Anyways, since meeting this girl and ultimately being turned down by her and removing her from my life for ignoring me, rather than feeling upset about it, I am finding myself with an enhanced sex drive. Every female that I meet that is at least somewhat attractive I want to have sex with; especially females who wear dresses or skirts that are above knee length. Today, I was volunteering at the library, and there is this female employee there that I've had a crush on since I started volunteering there but beings she has a boyfriend, I backed off. Today, however, she came in in a short black skirt with black slippers and I had such obsessive thoughts about wanting to have sex with her and see up her skirt that I had to go do my volunteer work at a separate part of the library to distance myself from her.

What is even wrong with me? lol