I was diagnosed as antisocial in my early twenties, there are a couple of things that may help. In my case I found an improvement after 25years and then when I turned around 40 I again had a big improvement. After 40 I as able to hold a job, buy a house etc. Remember that it will get better. Depression is often associated with this disorder and though treatment for being antisocial isn't very successful there are good treatments for depression. The most important thing is that you accept things aren't right, so now you can seek professional help. You are different from most people but that doesn't mean you are wrong or bad. People like us make the world interesting, imagine how dull the world would be without the "weird" people. Stay strong, seek help, and don't put yourself down, you are an important part of the rich tapestry of human life.