I'm new here and latley I've been stugging a lot. I've always wondered if I had depression. I have myself with a passion. I can't stand the way I look, act, think and behave. I'm always sad with the way things are going in life even though I shouldn't be. I live an average life. I've signed to play soccer for a 2 year college. Have two parents who both work. Have plenty of friends. I've never been abused in my life. Yet I still hate my parents. For some odd reason I can not stand them. I never tell them anything personal and try and avoid them. Just being with them makes me a weird nervous feeling that makes me almost want to cry. And all of this is a natural feeling I've had since I was a kid. Another problem of mine is ive been cutting myself. It's something that I've never thought of doing. Now it has become a daily thing. I think of it as a way to punish myself for being who I am. Usually at night I cry and think about everything that's wrong with me, and cut. Not enough to where I bleed but enough to leave marks and feel a good amount of pain. I really want to see a psychologist or therapist of some sort. But I can't explain to my parents , because of what I have explained earlier. I can't and won't tell them anything personal. I need help before my self harm gets worse. I don't know how much longer I can live the way I am now. If anyone reads this , does it seem I have depression or anxiety problems ? Is seeing a therapist really worth it ? And can I even be helped ?