It's 12:30 and I need to go to bed.

It's been a hard day, externally and internally, and I don't want to wake up "off". In my heart I know my dreams are going to take me somewhere that I won't remember when I wake up. It distresses me.

I hate this!! I can't get to the other side without it though. Right?

Please say a prayer that it won't be as bad as I'm dreading! Last night was off. There are too many things at one time.

I'm so very thankful for my family here with me right now. I'm going to focus on that and pray that I dream of that!!

Night.