Hello Eldoggo, I see this is your first post so welcome to PC! I hope you find your time here to be of benefit.

I think you could definitely benefit from seeing a therapist. If you are attending school, you can seek help through a school counsellor. If you're an adult, you can go to a clinic yourself and get a referral to see a therapist, psychiatrist, psychologist...someone who can help. You deserve happiness, and I wish you all the best.