My pdoc gave me depakine long release 300mg twice a day, I told him if it wasn't better to take the ER, inmediat release, since I am acute and the ER version makes you have more valporate in yor blood while the long release make you have the same amount but during 12h. He got angry. I admit I told him that in an angry agitated maybe rude way, but I think he overreacted since he said "It seems everything I say is wrong for you, you are not happy with anything I do, I don't know if this continue like this I will keep you as a patient..." with was wtf since I am normally kind. I answer him back telling him It wasn't about him but about me being generally agitated and irritable, that I am avoiding any social contact because I will ruin my friendships being like this. In the end he seemed to understand but it makes me feel really bad to the point of crying.

... in the biginning he insisted it was anxiety, I don't know what kind of anxiety makes you feel so happy you want to kill others because it seem fun, and then so irritable and agitated inside you want to scream until you have no voice anymore. Ironically when I describe a 'high' a week ago he said the description was a manic state.

anyone knows how much I have to wait until it works?