Actually I'm depressed as %#@&#! and have been crying on and off the entire day. Did not go to work. Went to school. The feeling is indescribable. There is a rage inside me now. I think it is from all of the unused energy during the depression-- it is collecting as a frustration of sorts. I love T and I appreciate his efforts more than you can imagine. I am glad to have him, glad he is willing to work with me. Yet, there is not a damn thing that will lift this mood.