I completely cannot cope anymore with my dissociation that is a part of my CPTSD. I have suffered through PTSD from the time I was a young child and into my adult years, despite being adopted by grandparents and removed from the initial abuse that I went through.

I have no support from my husband or other family members. I keep telling him that I don't want to talk about anything and he can't seem to understand that I don't want to talk. Not to him, not to strangers, not to counselors. I just want to get through my dissociation. He can't even understand that I just don't want to talk whenever he brings things up. He just gets angry and is telling me he's supporting me but I can't believe that whenever I get yelled at over not wanting to talk to him.

When I dissociate I get violent and I keep telling him not to bring up certain things because I've been getting violent and lashing out physically. He doesn't understand that he's setting me off by trying to force me to talk about things for some reason.

I've tried every possible way to let him know that he's setting me off and yet he still gets angry and yells at me and then denies that he is yelling at me.

Yes, I know it sounds like an abusive situation, but it really isn't. I understand he's frustrated but at the same time I can't talk about things and if I do, I will dissociate. It's a given. Coping skills don't help.