I told him "I still think everyone hates me and my self harm thoughts aren't going away" He asked me how so and I told him a tame thought. We talked about different AP and I said what I wanted, he mentioned Clozapine but I said no. He told me zyprexa is second best that he's fine with me trying it but it'll have to be a trial for months before he switches me. I did not tell him my husband is going away. He raised my lamictal and wants to see me in a month. I see T next week and we'll come up with a plan. Honestly I was so nervous I barely said a word.