feel like the only way to get by is to keep a buzz. Life is so hard and I want to be numb. I feel better when I'm drunk or high. I know it is a bad thing but I can't stand life as it is. Does anyone else feel this way? I just can't cope with day to day. I can't just lay in bed cause I have stuff I have to do, so what is the alternative. I just don't want to feel anymore.