Last weekend I became so overwhelmed emotionally that it triggered a reaction that I learned a long time ago as a child. It's almost like a switch is thrown and my emotions are suppressed. It's as if they are shoved in a box where my diaphragm is and the box is locked. I look okay to most people on the outside. I appear rather bland, even tempered or go with the flow. I'm actually quite apathetic and the pain in my diaphragm area waxes and wanes depending on the stressors I'm exposed to. I know that this is a defensive coping mechanism and last time this happened I held on too long and had a complete breakdown. Unfortunately my psyD is on vacation for 8 days so I have to handle this until I see him next Tuesday. Sorry for the long vent.