I was never one to drink much or to get high, etc.
However, approx. 2 years ago, I was in a deep agitated depression and I'd started drinking. Irish Whiskey. I drank a lot. I did not tell my pdoc for 4 months. (I see him every week. Secrets. Not good.)
I did not want to be drinking; yet, I'd needed the numbing effect.
As soon as I told my pdoc, he told me I was under-medicated. He'd then increase my meds. I do not crave drinking at all. I go to pubs and never drink.

I do understand the craving for a buzz or numbness.
I was relieved by a med increase.

WC