Anais is not doing well these few weeks

I didn't know it was May until a few days ago so I hadn't turned in my April timesheets, which means I don't get paid til mid-June. I also hadn't paid rent. I didn't know what day it was on Friday so I missed a rehearsal and got fired from that orchestra because of it. I am so heartbroken, it makes me feel like I'm lazy and irresponsible, but that's not what I am at all. It is what my manager and the conductor see, though, when I am inexplicably not there.

I saw my Tuesday students today and kept commenting "since I haven't seen you in three weeks...." No one said anything until one finally said "Miss Anais, you saw me last week!"

I didn't believe them but sure enough.... there in their practice notebook were notes from me dated May 2, and before that, April whatever. I have no recollection of it at all. I hope my students know I care. I feel like since I don't remember, they might assume I don't care. But I love them so much.