Myzen, this sounds true and makes sense to me. I too have this hatred towards bullies, mostly the psychological ones.

I have spent too much time hiding and not facing the issues. I learned some things about myself lately, and today even more so as I got in to see my new t. As mad as he mad me, I think this was his goal. He said I am committing suicide even if I don't want to admit it. With the harm I do to myself daily, this deep down is my goal and he is right. That made me sooo mad. lolol. I hate it when people "peg" my behaviors and my feelings with what my intent really is.

I do feel better though. He made me start to think and gave me some ideas to stop or try to deal with the urges of harming myself. I told him about the closet "issue" and we figured out what triggered me.

And I agree that the ones in this forum are not hiding and we should be proud of that. I think when we share and post our experiences, thoughts, feelings, fears etc---we are healing in some way.

Thanks Myzen and cheers to u too; lol.

Justy