I guess my brain is going nuts lately. I'm still already freaked out about hearing some lady yelling for Peter this morning. ? Wth?!

Now I have this Paxil my pdoc says to start and to be honest I don't want to start another medicine. I'm afraid to take it because I do t want to feel weird or gain weight. I'm fat enough as it is!

Also it's the med my abusive stepmother took and I feel weird about taking it because of that reason too. It brings up memories of how mean she was when she wouldn't take her meds. I work hard to do things opposite of her. I won't even buy her brand spaghetti sauce! Yes-that's how much it bugs me.

I guess my mind is just swirling with stuff tonight.

I e taken 10mg melatonin and 1.5mg Ativan and my brain is just racing.