I'm in my forties, and a few months ago I had a really traumatic experience and almost immediately after, an unexpected encounter with my childhood abuser. That is, someone that I suddenly realized was my abuser during this relatively brief encounter. I mean, I can see now that I really always knew it but just...I guess ignored it! By drinking, using and living in a total world of my own making. I can't believe how this is happening it's got me so crazy! Is this anyone else's experience? Please help me any advice or anything . I feel so sad and so very very angry it scares me.