I feel like this is kind of dumb because I'm an adult, but...

The thing is, I've NEVER been able to express myself properly. If I'm depressed/angry/any negative emotion, I always withdraw and breakdown. If I try to express how I'm feeling, even in therapy, I can't express it without sounding like I'm being dramatic over nothing. Likewise, positive emotions are hard for me as well. I get really chatty when I'm excited/proud/happy, but I go overboard and push people away because I'm so intense.

Basically, it doesn't matter if it's a 'good' or 'bad' emotion I'm feeling, whenever I try to share my emotions it always backfires. It's ALWAYS been like this, ever since I was a kid. I'm nearly 30 now, so it's been a while...

I feel very deeply but when I try to express myself, more often than not, it's a negative reaction I recieve. I'm... Not sure how to express myself in a more 'socially acceptable' manner? It makes me feel like I'm some sort of freak. I suspect I'm ASD because of this and some other things, but I dunno. It's the only thing that makes sense, y'know?

Anyone else deal with this sort of thing?