Hey There,

You have no idea how your first paragraph resonated with me. I feel like among all my friends I've had I have been the most level one, and feel more like a parent to them than a friend.

Honestly I came here looking to make friends that I can bring my problems too. I've also discovered sometimes it's hard to tell your problems to your family because they are, like you said, closed minded or will worry.

I'm a guy - so as I guy I can tell you how we are. It is possible for a guy to be friends with a girl. But our instincts want us to connect with them. The first time that a girl shows interest in a guy a light switch flips and I would say it's almost impossible for him to think of her as a friend from that point and not someone he is attracted to.

It's important to realize that guys are different from girls when it comes to emotions and sexual fulfillment. I will tell you that if a guy is talking to you, he is most likely attracted to you. Attraction doesn't have to be sexual. Attraction is simply a drawing to something. Your "nice" personality probably makes you very approachable by guys because you don't scare them.

Little secret: most guys are scared to talk to women because they fear rejection. So the nicer a girl is the greater the chance he will try to attract her back.

I am so, so sorry. Self harm is not a "phase," and is something to be taken serious. Physical objects will never compensate for an emotional void.

When I first developed anxiety I thought everything in the world was wrong with me. It was so hard for me to learn to deal with. My advice to you is this: if seeing a doctor will make you mentally feel secure then do it. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks, including your parents. Only your mental state can make you content, not other peoples' opinion of what your mental state should be.

Do what you gotta' do to cope. There is nothing wrong with drawing. I personally keep a journal that I write my feelings in every hour of the day. This has helped me in ways I cannot express to you.

I am not a therapist. I am not a psychologist. I a just a normal guy and I think one of the aforementioned individuals could give you better advice than me. But I will say this:

From what I just read it sounds like your parents, or you perceive that your parents, write you and your needs off. Perhaps your older siblings steal too much of their focus and you get so very little.... Just a thought.

What should you do? That's hard to say. I would recommend keeping a journal of your thoughts and feelings. No matter how crazy they sound. You may discover a lot about yourself that your brain couldn't process.

How do you stop people from falling for you? Good luck. If you are of the opposite sex it will happen. I'm sorry, but that's just reality. I am curious why you don't have girl friends instead. Often times I've found women who don't have girl friends don't like girls because they have been hurt by them too much, and find that guys will give them what they want emotionally.

How to deal with health anxiety? SSRIs can help. Therapist. Journal. Really think the problems out and see if you are truly experiencing pain or if it is just all anxious energy. Talk about it. Talk about it. Talk about it. Even if people think you're crazy. You will find someone who will listen, and it will be a blessing from God.

What to do when I feel like there's no one to talk to? Personally, I'm a Christian. I pray to Jesus Christ. I believe he listens.

I know I sound stupid but I really don’t know what to do anymore. You're not stupid. You say you don't know what to do anymore, but you just did it. You are reaching out for help. Never stop reaching until you have found it.

God bless you and I pray all rights itself with you.