I am 18 years old and i dont feel well. I have been feeling this way for years now. I dislike everybody around ne and feel that they have an ulterior motive if they do something for me. I feel guilty when something good happens to me as i am not worthy of it. I hate myself.And when I say hate, i mean it. I feel like im a loser. i have no real friends.I cant hold a communication with peole i know, let alone strangers.I love parties but also hate social situations at the same time.I fear rejection and people's opinion of me matters to me a lot.I always try to be the best but fail.I feel everyone around me hates me or is talking behind my back. I have even started disliking my parents. The things that would give me pleasure now feel a burden to me.I am bored all the time.I daydream all the time or think about my past mistakes and then feel bad about myself.Since 8th grade my i have been mocked for my weight which now looking back, i didnt even have. I have been mocked for my overall looks and i feel so inferior around people . What is wrong with me. I criticize everything i do and feel that i cant do one good thing.Please help