me again. i may just need to reduce the abilify. its odd...for a while, i needed all 30mgs, but now im very aware that i am tranquilized, and its getting to me. abilify isn't horrible, but it imapiring my concentration and motivation.

no eps or td, though. and elsa...that's another reason i wanna reduce. there is some data that shows that long term neuroleptic use makes psychosis worse. long term antidepressant use makes depression worse. long term benzodiazepine use makes anxiety worse, plus everything else that goes along with long term sedation.

see a pattern? ive been doing the vitamin thing (orthomolecular), and I think that might be part of the reason im doing so much better. i dont know if the orthomolecular people from back in the day are correct in saying that the vitamin mixes correct abnormalities, or its just...using vitamins at massive doses as drugs, basically. doesn't really matter. the vitamins have been good for me, unlike the psych drugs, and they're cheap and readily available.