Yes. I think I became AVPD when I was a kid. I had to wear a backbrace and often I was "trapped" with people that I didn't want to be with that either (1) would tolerate me with he brace or (2) were pitying me with the brace. So now I have a serious problem with being "trapped" in relationships.
I continue to also feel trapped because I have so many people that seem to see me as freely usable. It might be because I have very little friends and thus they think they can use me. Even if I manage to jettison some people who use me... I just get stuck with others.
A recent person came to my office, sat down, and discussed an issue with his daughter (it doesn't help that I am apparently a great listener). All could think in my head was how angry I was getting that he ever would presume I would give ANY care about some teenage drama of person I have never met and a teen. Obviously he just wanted to get this off his chest and no one else would tolerate it. As he went on I felt so trapped in my own office and really had to work hard not to blow up on him.
I started to talk about my cat... and as usual, he had to "get back to his office". At this point... I am not even surprised just angry.
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