Dear MC,
Is this transference fitting more of a pattern than I realized before? Are you seeing me as the one causing the problems in my life/marriage because I'm the mentally ill one? And I'm the one who needs to adjust how I am? I guess the difference is that you're not (presumably) going to reject me for those MH issues, in the sense of termination/forbidding contact...But if that's still how you view me, is it really that much different?
Maybe the different ending isn't just you not abandoning me. Maybe it's me standing up for myself and being like, "Maybe I do have some MH issues and some fears of things like anger. But I can still have those and be a functioning human being. Maybe I don't have to be fixed by you after all. Maybe I need to realize that I don't need to be 'fixed' per se...maybe it isn't always me that's the problem. Maybe I don't need to adapt myself to how everyone else is."
I need to think on this some more...
Love,
LT
Last edited by LonesomeTonight; May 10, 2017 at 10:02 AM.
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